Vacation - all I ever wanted!

Been sitting here debating about what I want to get a fullfilling, relaxing holiday? The problem is the instability in my life. With the project launch being end of August or November 1st, that's a huge gap. I can't take a week off with a August launch, but I could with a November one. But if we don't push to November until end of August, that leaves me little time to plan ahead. Do I go alone? Solicit a friend to go with me? Would it even be worthwhile to go abroad? That question leads me to my next thought which is, whatever happened to the girl who would overseas with or without anyone? The girl who needed a I.V. jolt of being a foreigner to feel irrelevant and alive?

I can't believe I've become such a freaking pussy about this.