Sliding Doors

I was feeling pensive on my drive home tonight thinking about a few things. So I came home and corked a bottle of Bordeaux and fixed myself a plate of Coq au Vin (I have a fab fix-it-in-fifteen recipe). Of course, I had to come home and work for awhile (but at least I was at home!) which disrupted the entire Francais vibe I had going on but I have now resumed that state of mind.

So I was thinking about a quote or lyric that goes something along the lines of how a small mistake can lead to a big problem. It made me think also of a movie that I absolutely love called Sliding Doors. Essentially, it's a movie about how one woman's life can be completely different entirely based on whether or not she makes it through the sliding doors of a London underground train. In one scenario, her life is devasted quickly and she makes her life better. In another scenario, her life grinds and falls apart slowly but avoids the tragedy the other life leads her to. The thing I love about the movie and the moral of the story, if you will is, it shows you that you will wind up wherever you're supposed to be. Fate is fate, and the journey is the only difference.

Sometimes I beat myself up over stupid things I say or do. I literally flog myself when I make choices against my better judgement (Remember Oprah's mantra: Doubt Means Don't). Recently I made some choices and decisions that went against my intuition and now I'm stuck in a situation I hate. In some respects, the Sliding Doors principle has already come to fruition - no matter if I listened to my doubts or not, I'd still be where I am now. But the Sliding Doors Principle is distinctly unfinished because there's yet another layer of unfinished business that depending on a small choice I will be making in the near future will determine if I get to the final result the hard way or the easy way.

As the cliche goes, I hope I have the wisdom to choose wisely.